I’m trying to figure out identity. Am I the same person who believed anything was possible and now feels that nothing is? Am I the same person who had energy to speed walk across campuses and malls who now uses a power chair for long walks? Am I the same person who used to lead clubs and teams in Highschool and college and now can’t start my own non profit? Am I the same person who could do a ton of piano Recitals in Highschool but who now can’t play in front of people without messing up? Am I the same person who used to read for hours who is now even too overwhelmed to listen to an audio book?

What is identity when it is mixed with Disability?

Identity is DNA.

Identity is that I’m saved by Jesus.

Identity is what I love.

Identity is personality….??? But what if I’ve become more cynical as I’ve grown? What if my abilities have waned? What if I have to change my desires and goals? What if I can’t engage like I did before? What if I can’t give like I did before?

What if Disability has changed everything about me, am I still me?